another day...

well its cold outside and its not summer anymore... well its summer at home, unfortunatley not here at my new home...

things have been bounding along, out of my control as usual... all i want is the days to stop so that i can grab ahold of things here, namely myself, however that doesnt seem to be happening... guess ill have to figure out a way to do it without changing time....

finally have my resume all done - quite proud of it actually... michael and i did it yesterday in bed... something is wrong with the central heating in this house and it feels like im living in an igloo... i have just been reading a book by jodie picult called the tenth circle - they are in alaska, ie my living room... waitangi day hit london on saturday with the usual crazy kiwi style - 12,000 drunk charging kiwi's (n a few aussies to boot) went drinkin on around the circle tube line in london... there are 2 many people for the amount of pubs, so the majority just drink out on the street... it was insane... i spent most of the day either lining up for more alcohol at off-licences or looking for/in line for a toilet... i got yelled at my some worker of westminster abbey to get out of the garden that this was not a public toilet and not to get any ideas... i honestly was not trying to go there i was just searchign in vain for a port-a-loo in the westminster abbey grounds...

few of the boys mates decided to come over at 4am and cook eggs... one in parcticular decided he would be different and cook the eggs on the kitched floor, or on the chest of his mate - neither worked and the egg in still residing in my kitchen... was GOING to clean 2day but the hot water n central heatin are not workin so am forced to bundle up in tights and trackies and socks and more socks and uggies and thermals and jumpers and hoodies and a scarf - ie. like im taking a trip to alaska...

sent off my resume to 4 or 5 places today... no idea wat there about really - but said i was keen in the email anyways... dont really care wat i do as long as it doesnt involve sitting in this house any longer!! its my own doing i know, i need to motivate myself and get cracking, but its so hard 2 get motivated when ur so cold u feel like the blood may freeze in ur veins if you move an inch and let the cold in after youv spent a whole day positioning yourself in bed so that you kept it out...

perhaps iv been reading too many depressing books and need to get over myself. im in europe for gods sake - somethin that iv only dreamt about since i was a little girl...

ill get here eventually, i think my mind is finally starting to realise where it is - attatched to this body on the otherside of the world from home....

o well, better to realise that late then never i spose :)

missing you all!! as you can see, im still as crazy as ever...

love you xxxx